title  weird headspace
date and time  12.03.2023 16:00
i've stopped crying about my one-sided feelings,
as i've realised something more important, more impactful, than those feelings.

it's those feelings of wanting someone to be more involved in your life, or being more involved in theirs.
it's realising that it doesn't matter what kind of feelings you have for them,
as you feel how life feels incomplete without their presence, without their input in your life, without hearing or seeing about their life.

it's knowing how much someone wants to be involved in your life, or you to be involved in theirs,
and the amount of effort they want to put into actually realising that,
compared to the amount you've already put into them, and want, or wanted, to continue putting into them.
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